One day he was spending time with her on a daily basis -- and then he wasn't. I often wonder about how lonely he must have been when he stepped away from the third wheel. I have a hard time understanding how he went from spending time with her every day, to never spending time... Continue Reading →
Self-care isn't selfish. It's the best way to be able to care for others. You gotta put your own oxygen mask on first.
This is the hell we put our kids through. Infidelity, the game changing behavior and its impact my adult children.
My breath, where did it go I'm falling down a well with no bottom A well with no sides A well that holds the whole world's fears I find them all as they dance and jeer and whisper in my ear "You're not enough You weren't enough You won't ever be enough" Punctuate the bell's... Continue Reading →
Gaining my bearings, I noticed there, beyond the snowy field, was the town home community I had been circling. The stark contrast of the field (that was too dark to see), touching the edge of the brightly lit neighborhood, created a new question I couldn't face alone... I quietly dialed 911. [Excerpt from Beyond The... Continue Reading →
I'm still sad. This sadness is unlike any other sadness I've experienced in my life, and I hate it. It feels like grief but we're all still alive. It feels like exhaustion, but I'm getting plenty of sleep now.
When I finally located my husband's car, it was the only car left in a dark and still Veterans Administration clinic parking log. The clinic was long closed. I know; I checked. And I was quite simply terrified to go look into his car... [excerpt from What About You blog post] I had driven for... Continue Reading →